The one thing I realize about me is... Wait. I mean, one of the many things I realize about me is, I'm always in a hurry. I'm constantly trying to achieve something, write something, film something. I always want to get things done, like NOW. And that puts me in a lot of pressure and stress. I'm always mad at myself if I don't get to my creative work. I get even more mad when I don't like the outcome of what I've produced. But then again, I've read a quote somewhere that says something like "an artist never completes his work, he just moves on." That makes me feel a little better :)
Been having a crazy week because of this sense of urgency. Not only with the 2 films I'm currently editing at the same time, but also with my job and my writing. I have so many things on my checklist of things-to-do, that it makes me so so unhappy. On top of that, I even missed a couple of deadlines because of this hectic schedule! This gives me an internal rage that I can't get rid off.
Then, today I read a blog post about "The Top 5 Regrets of The Dying" and I realize that I feel all of these things too (and I'm blessed enough to be still alive). Here's a break down of the list:
1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
2. I wish I hadn't worked so hard.
3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
4. I wish I'd had stayed in touch with my friends.
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
So this year, I'm going to dedicate myself to be happier, to not fear being true to myself, to be courageous with my feelings, to appreciate my friends more, to take a chill pill every once in a while when it comes to work (or even better, find a job that truly makes me happy).
I hope that you guys do too! Because, you know, you only live once ;)
Been having a crazy week because of this sense of urgency. Not only with the 2 films I'm currently editing at the same time, but also with my job and my writing. I have so many things on my checklist of things-to-do, that it makes me so so unhappy. On top of that, I even missed a couple of deadlines because of this hectic schedule! This gives me an internal rage that I can't get rid off.
Then, today I read a blog post about "The Top 5 Regrets of The Dying" and I realize that I feel all of these things too (and I'm blessed enough to be still alive). Here's a break down of the list:
1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
2. I wish I hadn't worked so hard.
3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
4. I wish I'd had stayed in touch with my friends.
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
So this year, I'm going to dedicate myself to be happier, to not fear being true to myself, to be courageous with my feelings, to appreciate my friends more, to take a chill pill every once in a while when it comes to work (or even better, find a job that truly makes me happy).
I hope that you guys do too! Because, you know, you only live once ;)
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