Okay, so I know I'm not gonna be very popular after posting this and most of you would probably think I'm crazy. Not the oh-look-at-her-running-around-in-circles-in-happiness-and-joy kinda crazy but a full out damn-girl-you-have-some-serious-mental-issues-going-on-up-there kinda crazy. However, a little part of me truly believes that a lot of people go through this but they are too afraid to "come out of the closet", so to speak. So, here goes.
My name is Rachel and I'm a stalker.
It all started 3 years ago when I was feeling very insecure about my relationship due to an incident I shall not disclose here. So, because of that, I started stalking the boyfriend's ex girlfriend. Yes, yes, very immature but hear me out. I knew that he didn't have any residual feelings towards her but I just couldn't believe it. I thought she was gorgeous and she seemed like a fun person. So, to feel better about myself, I tried to find out things about her that were not so pretty. And let's just put it this way, she's not perfect but there's something about seeing a person at their best and their worst that really makes you relate to a person.
Because most of her social media accounts are on private, I actually started looking at her friends' profiles. (OK, you can start ringing the crazy bells now.) And through that, I actually like these people. They are so.. human. I want to think of them as mean people but it's hard. And the truth is, people are people. Haha, I know, I'm not very eloquent. But the point I'm trying to make is, everyone is the same. You go through life and there are bad parts and there are good parts. And the most important thing is, there is always something to love about another person no matter how much you want to find fault in them.
Not only that, through my stalking, I actually found some good blogs to read that I still do every now and then. I also learn a few things from some of her friends like local poetry and cool music. I'm not trying to defend a bad habit but I just want to put it out there that there's always a good thing behind a bad (and also, scary and crazy) one. It's how you choose to look at something that makes a difference :)
To be honest, I haven't really stopped my stalking. I do try to resist the urge.
On a side note, I haven't met these people that I stalk online in person and I swear I had a glimpse of them once and my heart fluttered like I was seeing celebrities. I really do have high esteem of these people and I wish them the best in life :)
And to people who are reading this, I'm sorry I'm so insane.. I will try to be better :(
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Also, to boyfriend who doesn't read this blog on the principle that you will not read things without pictures, I'm really sorry and thanks for overlooking the crazy. You know how I feel about you.
My name is Rachel and I'm a stalker.
It all started 3 years ago when I was feeling very insecure about my relationship due to an incident I shall not disclose here. So, because of that, I started stalking the boyfriend's ex girlfriend. Yes, yes, very immature but hear me out. I knew that he didn't have any residual feelings towards her but I just couldn't believe it. I thought she was gorgeous and she seemed like a fun person. So, to feel better about myself, I tried to find out things about her that were not so pretty. And let's just put it this way, she's not perfect but there's something about seeing a person at their best and their worst that really makes you relate to a person.
Because most of her social media accounts are on private, I actually started looking at her friends' profiles. (OK, you can start ringing the crazy bells now.) And through that, I actually like these people. They are so.. human. I want to think of them as mean people but it's hard. And the truth is, people are people. Haha, I know, I'm not very eloquent. But the point I'm trying to make is, everyone is the same. You go through life and there are bad parts and there are good parts. And the most important thing is, there is always something to love about another person no matter how much you want to find fault in them.
Not only that, through my stalking, I actually found some good blogs to read that I still do every now and then. I also learn a few things from some of her friends like local poetry and cool music. I'm not trying to defend a bad habit but I just want to put it out there that there's always a good thing behind a bad (and also, scary and crazy) one. It's how you choose to look at something that makes a difference :)
To be honest, I haven't really stopped my stalking. I do try to resist the urge.
On a side note, I haven't met these people that I stalk online in person and I swear I had a glimpse of them once and my heart fluttered like I was seeing celebrities. I really do have high esteem of these people and I wish them the best in life :)
And to people who are reading this, I'm sorry I'm so insane.. I will try to be better :(
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Also, to boyfriend who doesn't read this blog on the principle that you will not read things without pictures, I'm really sorry and thanks for overlooking the crazy. You know how I feel about you.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I was like... did I just read my thoughts?
ReplyDeleteif you think you're insane, you have a friend. but then I think, we're not alone XD they just don't talk about it.
and this is why i love you! you're so real and so humble to admit your weaknesses. you're my celebrity! (: <3
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